I Thought You Were Mad At Me!

Today I made a phone call. I was trying to go to sleep and this person was on my mind, so finally I give up and I give in. I don't always feel like I have a lot of patience anymore for this person. I love them, however, I don't understand them. The only thing I do know is God loves them and it is never too late. So I made the call, no answer. I thought, wow! guess I got out of that, but then again, Lord if you want me to talk to them, have them call me. Guess what? The phone rings.

I answer and it is this young man I just called. He said to me, "I thought you were mad at me." I said, "why would I be? I don't understand you, but I am not mad at you." I said, "I love you and I know you know that, I just don't know how to help you and I can't help you until you decide to help yourself, but I love you no matter what."

I explained, "God put you in my life and He knows why you are doing what you are doing, He knows where you are at and He is knocking on the door of your heart and saying, "let me in." I said, "do you know the only place in the bible where God ever ran is?" He replied, "no." I said it's in the story of the prodigal son. I led him thru the story, then said, "all God wants you to do is recognize where you are and where your life at this moment is taking you, then to turn and surrender to Him. He loves you and when you decide to go home to Him, He will look up, and drop what he is doing and He will run to you, He will wrap His arms around you, hold your head to His chest and tears will stream down His face as he says, My son has come home!"

I then told him I wanted to pray with him, so I said, "will you bow your head right now?" He said "I have it bowed," I began to pray for Him and I could hear him weeping. I closed the prayer and said, "will you come to church tomorrow?" He asked "what time?" I told him and he said "I will be there." So now I wait on God.

I love this kid, and it is difficult to watch someone take their own life in their own hands and destroy it with drugs and alcohol, yet I have never walked in his mocassins, I don't know what it is he is running from. He has a huge thick wall he has put up that only God can tear down. I can't climb over it, I can't chisel through it, I can't tear it down, but one thing I do know is I plan to Pray it down! So now I wait on God to do what He does best!