He Is Working

Psalms 5:3 Yahweh, in the morning you shall hear my voice.
In the morning I will lay my requests before you, and will watch expectantly.

In the wee hours of the morning is the time when I am totally alone with God. Everyone else is busy or asleep and I am usually outside just talking, walking and visiting with Him. It's like my time to just stop and get real, letting everything out, being brutally honest with myself and Him. You could say, I sometimes laugh, sometimes I am angry, frustrated, annoyed, and sometimes I am just numb, I just don't know what I feel, and sometimes I am overjoyed and just want to praise Him.

I sometimes question if He is angry with me, or if He is listening. I know He does and yes I am sure He gets aggravated with me sometimes. I expect more than I give. I do things with the wrong motives and intents, I don't examine my thoughts and they run rampant, and yes, He is there, He is working, and I want it to be in my time, not His. I don't understand His ways sometimes. I know when I just trust, He always works it out in the best possible way. Why can't I remember that?'

So many things have gone on this year that I can't count. I have wanted to give up and quit, but I can't. I struggle with flesh and blood, all the while I know it is a spiritual battle and it is not necessarily even a battle that is being waged against me. It is a battle against Him. He is the one who is being attacked in me. King David said, Psalm 10:1 Why do you stand far off, Yahweh? Why do you hide yourself in times of trouble?

So I think...King David was a called a man after God's own heart and even He doubted. So today I will not doubt. I know He is working, even if I can't see it right now. He wrote the book, He knows how it ends and we win. Come quickly Lord Jesus!