Collateral Damage

My nephew, Jimmy Del Aker hung himself this past week. I got the call from my sister, he was hanging from a tree in her backyard, she was screaming pray Dana, pray!! She was out of control.

Oh God, why?

If I had known he was this depressed I would have asked him if he wanted to stay with us for awhile and just get away. Jimmy was always a loving child, he was one of four of my sisters children. He left behind four boys, ages 17, 15, 13 and 10. I had talked to him alot this past month. I wish I would have reached out to him, I wish I would have had some idea what he was thinking, what he was going through.

Jimmy was the primary victim here, however it feels as if a bomb has went off in our family, the collateral damage is massive. There are numerous casualties. We are all changed. I still feel like I will wake up from this nightmare. I can't believe it.